Memoirs of a Mistress

Thursday, November 29, 2007

Having been a Mistress for so many years now, I was beginning to wonder if I was just that good, or if some horrible mistake on my part would explode and ruin everything.

I made my first mistake. Lo and behold, I am not perfect.

The female that I've spoken of in the last couple posts was young, very young. I pursued her as a prospective slave for the sheer fact that she appealed to my physical tastes. That was my mistake.

She informed me yesterday that she would be unable to serve me and at first I was enraged with the decision. I'd never been turned down by someone before like that and it stirred something horrible inside of me. My first instinct was to grab her, bind her, and quite literally torture her until she succumbed to my wishes (something I've done to a willing slave before, but never in anger of actually obtaining something unwanted). I am a Mistress that rules with an iron fist, but slaves are humans too and I don't wish to remove their individuality completely. My slaves are my life. They are something I live for and I treat them as if they are my prized possessions.

I won't give myself the chance to skew what was said and written to me. Rather, I am going to quote directly from the message I received from her (no changes made but I removed names for privacy though):

I know that I said I would do things with you but for once in my life I need to be smart and do somthing with my life. I do want to hang out with you guys and do thing but I need a job and an eduction I need to start setting goles I don't want to be a leach for the rest of my life I need to start taking responsibilty for my actions. You are a wonderful person and I am honred to know you but i hope you understand were i am coming from. If I ever plan to become a nurse that means that I wont have time to do the things I want if you will permit me I would love to still come over to your place and have fun with you when ever I get the chance.

your willing slave **********

Aside from spelling and grammar mistakes (yes, it bothers me), it was a very heartfelt message and I can say that I am proud she wrote it. My response was a bit long winded though, as per usual (again, names were removed):

I'm glad you came to the realization that you did. It has taken me years to convince ********** that he intentionally tries to fail at everything he does. He is a stubborn jackass and he knows it. It took him until this week to even start attempting to succeed at something and now, today, he is going to do training for Me-N-Eds. He'll finally have a job and he shows sincere interest in moving out on his own for once in his life.

You were in the same boat as him, but considering the fact that I haven't known you all that long, I wasn't about to berate you like I do **********. You're a smart girl and I would love to keep you as a close friend above all else. Friends are the backbone of your life once you move out on your own.

Anyways, don't apologize for things. Unfortunately, I am a very hard person to please when it comes to certain things. I tend to find a goal and keep at it till I obtain what I want. And **********, I can honestly say that I want you around and I want you comfortable enough with everyone and I so you have a place to turn when life throws you for a loop. Maybe ********** is already that for you. I know you two talk. If so, then at least I know you're in good hands.

So, with all that said, I want to congratulate you on your very responsible choice. However, you do need to realize that if you are going to make it through life, you can't be serious all the time. Just know that when I take a slave, it isn't about just the sexual aspect. In fact, that doesn't come till later. Anyone who I am Mistress to is like a rare jewel to me. Their entire life is important to me. Don't forget that you always have a place with ********** and I, even if you just need a few good laughs. We're the most bizarre couple I think most people will come across. If you want to take things beyond friends at any time, just ask. Till then, I'll be satisfied and very happy to say that you are my beautiful friend **********.

If you ever need anything, and I mean A-N-Y-T-H-I-N-G, call me. Ask anyone and they will tell you that I am more than willing to set aside my life for someone I feel is special to me. You are special to me and you can thank ********** partially for that one. I don't care what it is, call me. If you need to talk, call. If you need to get drunk cause you had a stressful day and want to relax, call. If you need a hug or to feel someone against you as you fall asleep, call. Whatever it is, I can try my best to do anything in my power to help.

Your Loving Mistress,
**********

So, that is what became of her. She has become merely a friend for now, but there are hopes pointing to other things later in life. One does not turn away someone as lovely as her just because she has career and life goals she wants to obtain. No. I'll stand by and watch her grow. Watching the young blossom into adulthood can be quite wonderful and I suspect it will be nothing less with her.

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